Why we decided to have a third baby

I’ve gotten this question quite a bit, so I thought I would write up a post. We are so excited to continue to grow our family, also feeling a little nervous too. It’s been almost 5 years since we had a newborn in the house. I just wanted to say to that my heart goes out to those that are trying to conceive. We feel so blessed that we are able to grow our family and I’m thinking of those, some that are close friends that are wishing for that baby. Troster and I have never had an issue getting pregnant, but I did have two early miscarriages and it was absolutely devastating. All that to say, I’m always here if you need to talk.
I feel like deep down we always knew we wanted to have a third. Troster and I are both one of three. We always said that we would have a big family. After having Charlie though, I thought I was done. Then came the pandemic and my dad passing suddenly; the last thing I could think about was having another child. Last summer when we were in Colorado, we were one hike of many. Troster was hiking in front and a family came out from around a turn towards us. I was oblivious to all of this happening. At first Troster thought they had two kids around the same age as ours, but then lagging behind came one more a little younger. He told me about this later, but on that hike he was thinking about longing for a third and that little moment was God’s way of telling him that it would happen.
Over the summer, I was not ready to add another baby to the mix or ready to be pregnant. In the fall though, something changed. I kept thinking about what Troster told me months before and what I pictured for our future. I love my brother and sister so much and I can’t imagine not having grown up without them. They were seven and five years older than me (the same age gap as our three will be) and yes, at times I felt like an only child, but they helped me grow up. I learned from things that I shouldn’t do and also footsteps I wanted to follow in. I always had someone to look up to and now the age gap doesn’t even matter.
I also had the thought of ”if not now, then when?” The sudden loss of my dad has made me think a lot about decisions and what I want for my life. Time is so sacred. I also thought how much joy this decision would bring to our life now and later on. This baby is the blessing we didn’t know we knew we needed.